This morning, I woke up with this mix of feelings. All kinds of feelings happening all at once: anger, rage, happiness, melancholia, frustration, sadness, anxiety, guilt. I know it sounds extremely creepy, but suicidal thoughts are a constant. I have to confess that I fell asleep and also got up with the same idea: what the hell is my mission on earth?! What do I have to do to finally deserve some real rest?!
But whomever says I don't think about others, about things, about actions and reactions, needs to be told off. It's so unfair of everyone to judge me, and not care about me, when I'm literally dying inside. I guess there will be a day when I'll simply disappear and then I'll be somewhere wondering.. is there someone missing me?!
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Well .. I understand ... and I think you should not worry about anything that does not rely on yourself! Life is simple ... very simple ... and it seems complicated, why not believe sometimes that life is so ... About suicidal thoughts .. change your thoughts when they come ... for surely, many will miss you, and this is not fair to you or to people who love you, and may have difficulty relating with you!
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Fausto