I think I've been feeling a little bit melancholic lately. Despite all my efforts to look at the bright side of everything, and being as productive as possible, I can't help but feel down sometimes. I've been feeling homesick a lot. But at the same time, I know I'll be missing all this very soon as well.
Today, when I was walking to campus, coming to the computer lab, I couldn't stop myself from contemplating everything surrounding me: the buildings, the squirrels, the ducks and little ducklings, the rabbits, the trees, kids playing wiffle. Such a nice day, wonderful weather!
I guess we have this tendency of looking forward to things that will happen in the future and actually forget about the present. We become anxious, nervous, happy, excited, upset, or whatever it is, anticipating what will happen, but then we just see time pass by without even noticing.
And I guess that I, maybe more than everyone else might imagine, love living in my own little world, with my own crazy thoughts about the present, the past and the future, and creating things that have never happened, and imagining other stuff that won't ever happen... And by doing this, maybe I just lose focus from what's really going on.
Well, I wish I could just make a decision such as "from now on, I'm going to pay more attention to right here and right now" or " I'll stop making plans for tomorrow and living today"... I can't promise I'll do that. But I'll sure try to keep my mood as stable as it is for now and continue with my appreciation for the little things around me. At least for now.
But wait... Isn't something missing?! Isn't someone missing me?!
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