It is decided

Well, I guess that the biggest agony one can face is living in doubt. It's always a pain not knowing where to go, how to do something, when to leave, who to stay with... Being depressed, the only explanation I can give people as to why the sorrow won't go away is that I have no clue about its reason in the first place.

Yeah, I know it may sound a little bit crazy, but it's true. If you know what the problem is, you're halfway there to find a solution. But if you don't know what it is, then you'll definitely not know what to do, or where to go, or which direction to take.

Let's say you know you're lost in the woods; then you know you need to find a way out (or at least, if you decide to stay, that you need to find a way to survive). Let's say you know you have some kind of disease; then you know you want to find a cure, treat yourself, make yourself feel better. You are broke and have bills to pay; you need to work and earn tons of money, or you need to win the lottery, or you try to get a loan from a bank or borrow some cash form friends.

Anyway, no matter what the problem is, knowing its nature is always a relief. It might be frightening, but it's always more comfortable than not knowing.

But when you have no clue... that's simply dreadful!!! It's almost like being drowning in the ocean, being paralyzed, so that you can do absolutely nothing. And you know you're in danger, you know you might die if you don't start moving and saving yourself, but you just can't. That's simply painful!!!

But right now, I know exactly what to do!!! And that's wonderful! I know perfectly where I'm going and what I have to do. And I can't describe how amazing this feeling is!!

Cheers.